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The Grief of October
Published 6 months ago • 3 min read
Camille's Corner
(of the internet)
With October comes the darkness and the grief,
If you want to express and indulge your spooky vibes check out my upcoming event on October 18th where we will be watching The Craft movie and crafting our own tarot cards! Click the button or scroll down to get full details on the event.
I don't know about you but I have been feeling more of the darkness and grief in my life recently. Between the anniversary marking one year of war on Gaza, my own grief coming up a lot recently, and the literal darkness that is more present as we've passed the Autumn Equinox I have been feeling all the feels.
Watching the sun set in Seattle last week
I know generally in this time of year we speak about ancestors and honoring the dead but I also want to honor the grief that comes with chronic pain, migraines, sensitive skin, broken medical systems, and grieving the person you thought you'd be. Yesterday I got a facial which I was hoping would be a self-care and healing experience and it brought up so much grief for me and had me crying during and after my appointment. So many thoughts and feelings of, why me, why does my skin have to be so sensitive, why is this so hard for me and seemingly not for others, why doesn't my skin get better even when I try all the things, why does it have to hurt, etc.
I felt really vulnerable and sad that I spent so much of my life wishing my skin was different, wishing I was different, wishing I didn't care as much, wishing I could look and be like other people. I'm also proud of myself though for letting out those tears and not holding them in, allowing my cosmetologist to see that vulnerability and guide me through deep breathing, and my lovely hair stylist who caught me on the way out of the building and offered me a warm hug. I am getting better at allowing the feelings to come up, identifying them, and then sitting with them before letting them go. It is not comfortable. There are so many opportunities for me to practice this as I allow for my feelings to come to the surface more easily and now I actually feel equipped to move through them.
I remember Emily and Amelia Nagoski in their book Burnout talking about moving through feelings. That sounded nice but I still felt like I didn't know how to do it. From what I understand now and my own experience, moving through feelings looks like sitting with myself, identifying what I feel in my body, identifying what feelings I associate that body sensation with, crying, deep breathing, and saying out loud, "This is how I safely release my feelings" over and over until they feel released. Maybe you're already great at this and don't need a breakdown of how to do it. I was not great at it and definitely needed a step by step breakdown of how to do it and it helped me to be guided through the process as well.
If you want to alchemize some of your feelings into the art of tarot card creation, check out details below for my next event!
If you want to explore this topic further you can journal about:
What grief is coming up for you this month?
How do you grieve who you thought you would be or how you thought life would go?
What feelings came up or sensations in your body as you read about my grief in this newsletter?
Next Let's Talk Tarot Event:
Craft and The Craft, October 18th 5-7pm at Crescent Moon Gifts
My next event will be Craft and The Craft movie watching party! Let's watch the 1996 classic movie The Craft while crafting our own tarot cards! Join us for a magical evening of tarot card creation and making new friends within the vibrant community of pagans and witches. No tarot or art experience needed!
I will bring all the supplies and lead you through the process of creating your own tarot cards. This event will cost $35 due to the supplies needed. Come and hang out with other witches while we usher in the Halloween season with this movie and crafting night!
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